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New Years Update

Apologies to those who’ve watched me disappear from this blog. I won’t list all my excuses here, but I’m glad to be able to say, with some bitter-sweetness, that I’ve restarted the series that proceed The Red Forest. It’s lacking a title, but I began it in November for NaNoWriMo and reached about 51k words, which, coincidentally, is the approximate word count I’ve reached so far in Parallax. That project has been in hiatus since summer of ’11.

Here’s to a new year, yes? I hope to at least complete one of those novels I’m working on, because I have a third story that’s been lulling around in my mind for the past two months. I must admit, new story ideas don’t come to me extremely often, but when they do, I let it simmer in my mind for a while. Sort of like a test for strength, if you will. Am I the only one who makes “deals” and “conditions” with themselves? I told myself I won’t begin this new story until I finish at least one of my novels-in-progress.

The new story? It seems, at the moment, to be in the SF/F genre, parallel or alternate universes and such… multi-dimensional, that sort of thing. And all that inspired me was a four minute cut scene from a video game preview. From that video, a cascade of ideas and characters assaulted me, and it’s stood the test of time because I’m still thinking about it. But I must complete the first draft of one current novel first!

Otherwise, life’s been busy and I don’t get half as much free time as I’d like to write (or paint). I have a part-time job, I have two consistent commissions for a website and illustrations for a friend’s writing project, and I’m also homeschooling my kindergartner as well as doing all the other things a mother and wife does. Feeling very unproductive as of now! But I apologize, I said I wouldn’t explain [all of my] excuses. I’ve been reading a lot too, there were some winners and losers in my reading list, but the good certainly outweigh the bad. My past reading list is here, and I successfully completed my goal of reading at least forty books in 2011!

I hope everyone had a wonderful holidays. Anyone make some New Year’s writing, or otherwise creative, resolutions for 2012? I have an inkling it will be a most interesting year.


Unmotivated Block

This hideous lull in my writing is awful, absolutely awful. It’s been going on for more than a month now – for the most part. I did begin Book 2 last week and the first section of the chapter was shorter than expected, like 500 words.Getting to write those 500 words took about three weeks of self-coercion, though.

I thought that starting with a new perspective might get me back into the groove, but that proved misleading and depressing. Then I sat back and said, well I’ve hardly outlined anything yet and maybe I’m just unsure of where I’m going. So I spent about two weeks making a checklist of what needs to happen in this cantankerous section called Book 2. That was fun and interesting and certainly useful. And I even outlined to chapter 12! (Book 2 starts at Chapter 10) The ideas flowed awesomely, although I noticed that it’s becoming more information and “why” heavy rather than just letting a series of events occur. Yes, it’s true, I need to begin to introduce and establish way more back story and world building than I did in Book 1. Enough with the introductions already.

So I get to writing and nothing comes.

Read a book. That always inspires me to write. Apparently, an 800 pg fantasy book and 700 page YA novel later, nothing. Not even a spark of stimulation. It’s curious, because usually after reading a long novel, the urge returns. Maybe I have to read something good. Maybe only Dostoevsky possesses that unique essence that rubs off on me and makes me want to write. After all, his works inspired the first book I ever finished. Granted, the first novel I finished was in the literary genre and therefore was a tad bit easier to write than a full-blown epic fantasy.

But I LOVE fantasy, what is wrong with me? These things come naturally to me.

So I watched a favorite movie of mine. Nothing. Defined the list of vocabulary words I’ve accumulated over the past couple of months. Maybe an intriguing word or two would catapult me into wanting to write that one impressive and articulate word into my story. Nothing.

Interact in writing forums. Nothing. Read nothing but blogs on writing and books. Nothing. Just watching the world pass me by. Tried writing long-hand. Nothing on the page. Decided I wouldn’t stress myself about not writing. A week went by and I didn’t even think about it once. Nothing.

Maybe I should read in a different genre. I even took a short break to muse over another story idea I had, and actually write some of it. It did me no good. Actually, now that I think of it, that’s what kind of got me here in the first place.

There is only one other solution I can think of that I haven’t tried yet. A push from Svedka might just give that slight amount of “to hell with it” to just start typing. That alcohol-induced sense of false assurance and assertion might be the catalyst to make me not give two craps what I’m writing or who’s going to read it.

It’s a freaking first draft, after all!!

I refuse to diagnose myself with writer’s block. It’s unmotivated block.


How do you get out of unmotivated block? Caffeine? Deprive yourself of things until you pass that annoying hurdle? Just set it down indefinitely? Pretend you have a deadline?

Inspirational Work

Influence Map:

What influences my artwork and writing.

1. Hunter S Thompson
2. The unity and neat composition of Bottle by maddieart
3. Brom. An influence since I was a young adolescent; someone to aspire to.
4. The action of sitting and contemplating while absorbing nature, whether it be sitting on my porch, driving, or sipping my coffee. My particular blend? No. 27.
5. Flying vehicles, futuristic city scapes are a heavy inspiration for my writing. by JJasso
6. The vast beauty of this particular image fuels my creativity. Mountain Base by Grimdar
7. Fyodor Dostoevsky
8. I’ve been playing these games since the first one came out for PC: the fantastic series of Wip3out, Anti-Gravity Racing League.
9. James Gurney’s Dinotopia. Since I was a child. Probably what led me to be infatuated with sci-fi and fantasy.
10. Space. The unknown opens the imagination. Dissonance by thenavigator
11. Sandara and her work is something I wish to aspire to.
12. The clean and simple image, Space Yacht by Antifan-Real
13. One of my favorite pieces. Combines my love of books and architecture. by Laurente Menabe
14. A bit of gin and tonic always helps the muse. Cocktail by noch003

this meme taken from fox-orian’s Influence Map